I mentioned touch in a previous reply, but I didn't feel like talking about it...

So my T walked me to the elevator. She put her hand on my back. It felt okay. I don't know why I decided to ask so early, but I asked for a hug. It was horrible. It felt so wrong. Almost like I was violated. That worries me a lot. Either it was way to early and I was stupid to ask (I was), or there is no connection to her. I always judge a relationship based on how I feel when they touch me. If I'm comfortable, it means they're safe.

BUT...maybe this is a good thing. Maybe I can avoid attachment and transference with this T. Again, I just am lost.