There is more chance of you enjoying yourself and the world again if you are alive. Drop the 'if' cause you are alive. I hope you find one thing that makes you feel slightly okay again and then I hope it reminds you that 'happy' is out there.

You knew it once. You'll know it again. I believe in you. You reach out when you hurt. One day you'll reach out, and grab whatever is going to help you back to your 'life worth living'.

I hope what I am saying helps. I know nothing really helps me. But you are worth the time I took to think this and type it out. And I don't even know you. Somewhere at some point in your life, someone will know you better- and you'll still be worth it. But they'll be able to help so much more.

Maybe that is when you will be able to grab.

Until then, keep reaching.