When I was about 16 I had a great counselor at school and she helped me through rough times. Since then I would regularly dream about seeing her whenever I was going through a rough patch, this happened much less since I started seeing current T almost 4 years. Sometimes I dream about current T, sometimes about ex-T, but only when I'm really down like at the beginning of the year when I was feeling suicidal.

Last night it happened again: I dreamed I was back in high school but at my current age, and I saw ex-T on my way to my classroom, like I used to every morning. As we haven't seen each other in years we went to an empty classroom and started discussing stuff. I don't remember details, only that at one point she said she'd have to call current T as she didn't want to interfere in my treatment plan, and ex and current T discussed me and made plans for my therapy.

I woke up shortly afterwards, and hours later this still leaves me quite worried. These kind of dreams are always warning signs for me that I'm about to get worse again, that I need to ask for more support. But right now I'm doing as well as can be hoped in my situation, I have absolutely no urges to self-harm in any way, I'm really excited about my new job and can't wait to start... Of course live isn't perfect, but I haven't been this well in a long time. So why did I have this dream? what is my mind trying to warn me about? I really hope my brain messed up and it's just a glitch, but this never happened before and I can't shake the idea that something will happen soon.