Woke up this morning grounded and exhausted. My ears are ringing very loud. I have to get food so I will go out into the world. I am feeling very robotic today. I will do the things I need to do and come home. I keep thinking I would be better if I had to work. If I had to be in the world functioning. But I don't want to work. I don't want to have to be somewhere. I don't know how to help myself. I should but I don't. I just feel numb