Do you do any socialising, belong to any groups / clubs? I think when we focus too hard on one thing and it never seems to come along, it can make us feel low.

Maybe by changing focus and just looking to build up relationships with friends, intimacy will come along when you least expect it to.

I am not in a relationship and tried dating sites for a while, but after little success in finding someone I click with, have become more focused on practising making friends with people.

No-one really knows what happens when we die and I remind myself that maybe I would be casting myself off into worse place, so I'm going to stay around for if I leave the "party", I might miss something special.

Take care