……and I am having one panic attack after another. I've heard that the body can't sustain a panic attack for more than a certain amount of time, but I feel like I've certainly been in panic mode all day. I've been shaking, my teeth have been chattering, my mouth is numb, my heart is racing, I'm dizzy. This is exhausting and terrifying. I don't know how much more of this I can take.

I feel like I'm being silly, but knowing that I'm not going to be seeing my T for 2 months is throwing me into a tailspin. Its causing me to feel very young and regressed. I'm going to miss her so much. This is the longest amount of time I'll be going without contact with her.

On top of not seeing her, I have all these fears-what if things change? What if I'm not important to her anymore? Of course her new baby and family will be the most important, but what if I'm not important at all? It's all just spinning around in my head and I feel ridiculous, but so worried. I've only missed one session, and I miss her already.

On top of that, my pdoc, who I would normally turn to, is away.

Does anyone have advice?