No deed to be "depressive," as we all feel that way sometimes. When we're preoccupied with fighting "The Beast" (what I call depression), it's hard to see an upside to anything. Just remember that these feelings are temporary (after all have BIPOLAR) & our thoughts will change when things start on the upswing again. I know my words are empty from where you're perceiving them, but remember how things have worked out in the past.

As for your partner, don't do their thinking for them. My partner has been on the ferris wheel of emotions with me for 11 years & I feel useless to her when I'm depressed, but it's during those periods when I fail to see just how tolerant & supportive she is. If she didn't love me, she wouldn't stay. I'm sure the same dynamic is present in your relationship.

Take care & try not to let depression, or useless reminiscing of the past beat you. Tomorrow is another day. Having bipolar, we have to remember that what goes down will eventually rise back up.