[QUOTE=SoupDragon;4382846Is there anything else you have learned to manage difficult feelings?
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Thanks Soup. I have tried many things to manage. I try breathing techniques. Watching funny films. I took my son and nephew to the beach yesterday and played in the water and rock pools, and sat in the sun. It didn't change my mood, but it gave me moments of relief from thinking.
I tried some art, and towards the end I realised that I was making a piece that symbolised my broken parts, and tears, and how therapy has begun to heal the layers of brokenness through tears, and begun to transform the broken towards something beautiful. I realised I was making a gift to say goodbye and thank you to my T. My friend came over and saw it, and when I explained what it was to her, she physically doubled over and cried. She said it was beautiful. I just feel pain
The evenings are just overwhelming, lonely and I do not seem able to allow myself to get the feelings out. I have to stuff them down.
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Originally Posted by Brown Owl
Can you ask your T to write something for you, maybe a letter, maybe about your therapy together, that you can look at in between the last three appoinmtnes? When is your appoinment with your new T? I guess you can't bring it forward? I'm a big fan of alternative therapies like reflexology, they help with emotions. I'm sending you hugs.
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Thanks Brown Owl. I do have an appointment with a new therapist, the day after my therapist finishes seeing clients. The appointment was made so he could come with me hopefully, but he went ahead and booked a course to attend on the last 2 days that he is supposed to be seeing clients. Yes, I am angry about that. And no, I can't bring it forward, the new therapist had already fitted me in earlier than she had availability just so my therapist could come with me to ease the transition......
As for asking my therapist to write something, it is a lovely idea. Not sure I can ask now though, I am so closed off to him. Also, he is planning on our last session being a sharing what he thinks about me, talking about the therapy, what I have achieved etc session. I think I would love him to write something for me though.
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Originally Posted by Soccer mom
Can you ask for another session?
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I saw my therapist last Tuesday, it is Tuesday now, and because of the holidays my next appointment is not until Friday. Last week I emailed and said I was hurting myself so much both mentally and physically, and that I did not know if I could go 9 days before being able to try to talk. I asked for an extra session. He said no, he had no space, he wishes he did but there is nothing available. I have felt much worse since that email.
socialwork12....thank you for your message. I don't really think I have an eating disorder. Just poor coping mechanisms. But I am no expert. Something to keep in mind. I haven't really spoken of it in any depth to my therapist. Maybe I will with my new one.