I have definitely seen what you guys are talking about. I do sometimes fantasize about people taking care of me and even had surgery on both feet at the same time that i could have done without but said ok to because I thought someone would finally HAVE to help me (didn't work out that way).

This seems different though. It is more a feeling of wanting or needing to be attacked or hurt in order to be ok or right (I don't know how to explain)... I know, it sounds sooooo strange! That's why i wondered if anyone else has experienced it.