Ad intra, oh yes. I have no memories before the age of 6 and based on some of the knowledge we do know, we are pretty sure there was csa. After 6 was years of emotional mess, so I know there is plenty of disfunction in my head. ..lol

So, i understand the desire for something to happen for attention and care but this thought of being attacked and really hurt seems much stranger because it is different then the times i think of someone caring.

Don't know, just bizarre.