I do, but things have settled down a lot for me since my kids are grown. I wish I had some good advice for you, it sounds like you have a lot to deal with one thing I can say is that you absolutely need a break once in a while and you need to have some fun. I totally forgot how-due to some serious stressors I had going on but now I can tell you it really helps and will give you more energy. I wish you all the best