Claritytoo,

Since you felt better outside, then got worse when you came back inside, maybe your house is a trigger? Maybe that's why you feel the need to move so badly. I'm on 40mg of antidepressants myself, but still manage to become depressed. I think treating depression with disociative disorders is more tricky than with the majority of depressed people. Maybe as alwayschanging2 suggested, you have a depressed alter and that's why you don't feel a connection with the depression. I may or may not be right, but at least you have some ideas to bounce around in your head. I sincerely hope you get better. For some reason your post stuck with me.