Unpredictability
Not being able to trust my brain to do what it's supposed to
Insomnia
Anger/Irritation
The guilt that I feel in my depressed states where I.just.can't.do.anything.

There's more, but I think what I hate the most is trying to explain this to people, and them being dismissive because they don't understand and (I suspect) don't really want to. I don't go to doctors and therapists and spend money on myriad prescriptions for grins and giggles. My house doesn't look like crap sometimes because I am lazy. I am not possessed by the devil or somesuch other religious nonsense. I am trying to muddle my way through a medical condition that is every bit as challenging as a more "visible" one. Ugh, just ugh!!!!