So I’ve been talking to this guy online for about seven months now- quite a while. We’ve never met and only spoke on the phone once. I’m 22. I met him by accident in September trying to give him advice, and somehow we’ve ended up talking for a few months. Lately though I haven’t been happy with talking to him. I will try to talk to him through text or e-mail, and then he won’t respond and then later he will tell me he fell asleep or make up some other kind of excuse. He also tells me often that he has a very busy life, etc. and wishes he had the time but has too many responsibilities. At times he has just ignored me when I’ve tried to talk to him as well. He was very distant for a while and then apologized for it, saying he was too busy and upset because we couldn’t meet yet (we live sort of far apart). Lately I’ve just been frustrated by this entire situation. I’ve told him many times out of frustration that I just want this to be over (including tonight), and now I really do think I want this to be over. I really do like talking to him and care about him, but we have a lot of differences as well. He drinks, I don’t. I am in university- he went to college but didn’t complete high school, and even though I appreciate his honesty, he doesn’t have a very good past to say the least (he made bad lifestyle decisions- I occasionally use this against him even though I shouldn’t. I can tell he’s had his own struggles in life, I don’t know why though). He’s far from perfect (he’s said a few things that I thought were inappropriate at times even), but I’m not perfect either, just in different ways, and yet I know I could probably be with a different kind of person given my lifestyle and goals. I wasn’t interested in being in a relationship (I only found out on January that I likely have BPD and some other things) and sometimes I wonder if the reason I talk to him still is because I have nobody else I can communicate with on a regular basis. I have no friends, I have never dated because my depression and anxiety have been so severe over the past few years. Anyways, this is really bothering me. It shouldn’t because we’ve never even met and it’s difficult to say if this would work out anyways. I get so frustrated that sometimes I will literally send 10 text messages in a row saying I want it to end. I think we have both done things to upset each other at times. Part of me just wants to walk away, especially knowing I could eventually find someone more suitable for me.