I feel the same way always. I have a loving family. Still i dont know why. Am sure they love me. But i have trust issues. All i want is some one i can talk to freely in this big family. Unluckily there is no one. I hide my pain from them. Feels like no one cares. So am here lonely as always talking to my pillow at night & crying like mad..again wearing a smile in the morning. Dont know how long. Am just tired of it