I would like to add my take to your explanations with putting myself into the answers of your questions.
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Originally Posted by damage_case1987
I was seeking psychiatric help and never got a proper one. I tried medicines but none of them had any effect on me. I was being diagnosed for depression, anxiety and previously had OCD and self-harm/suicidal state.
Recently due to certain events, some therapist said that I may have Narcissistic Personality. And I never came to that conclusion.
1. I never thought that I was special. Although, whether its personal life or professional I usually end up fighting with people coz I get no respect or people didnt include me in a project when I deserved to.
I always thought of my self as a chosen/special one
2. I also blamed psychiatrists/psychologists (I still think Im right in some ways) for there improper management of patients and/or the session itself.
Feel the same until I get them to a point were they understand what I wanted and then allow me to take over the sessions. (Not a good thing but it was so my issues that did this)
3. I never was stimulated by any woman so much so that I chase after her and/or hope for a date and actually go through it.
Can't really follow you here as I never had this problem.
4. In past 2 yrs, this is my third job. I blamed the mgmt and the team members (rightfully so). They never included me in any project work and when I tried they ran away or made some excuse so that they can keep their assignments and regular work to themselves while I struggled sitting alone. I never completed any appraisal cycle coz I presumed that since I havent done much work in the year what will the mgmt appraise me for. I talked to the mgmt and they just make me handle those situations.
I always made sure I made my way to the top by handling situations in a way I deemed necessary. Maybe just strong work ethics ha ha
5. My blood boils bcoz of inefficiency of people, the govt etc. I have very strong opinions and likes/dislikes.
I too have strong feelings and get very heated in situations were one disagrees. I have had issues to say the least with understanding others point of views. Work in progress
Am I a narcissist? Its said that some narcissists do make great leaders. What can I do to turn this hostile nature into a leadership quality?
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My narcissism is fueled by becoming better. I take roles that allow me to climb to the highest points and lead situations in a way this has helped with being on top but the issues that come along with this are not healthy. Being the best is a label and with that there are so many more important things to be successful rather than being better than most. Healthy narcissism is important as a leader.... Negative narcissism would not give you the title of leader but rather dictator!!