i am sorry to hear you are struggling so much. i hope this isnt something i have to look forward to. it has been almost two years for me and so far i havent experienced any symptoms. i have heard a lot about something which i cant clearly remember now...i know that doesnt help a lot...lol...but i have like yam cream? from the natural food store that you rub on your skin daily they would know if you went in and asked what they have to address menopause. when i was in massage school my teacher used to talk about it all the time. it has some of the chemicals that your body is losing now that you are no longer producing as much estrogen.