Thank you ChipperMonkey. I guess because I harbor so much resentment I needed to get it out of my head and see what others think. I am not happy being so angry at this woman and I think she is despicable.

She had to of lied to her husband for years as well as my current bf in order to hedge her bets and see which one would step up their game enough to "win" her.

She got pregnant shortly after my bf and her ended things and she was posting to her social media inferences that the kid could be my bf's. She is of Asian decent and my bf is not so judging by the pictures of her son it isn't my bf's but still the idea that any minute she can drop a time bomb on us and shake up our world freaks me out.

The thing that bothers me is that she has a lot of professional contacts in common with my bf and I because we all work in the same industry and at one time we all worked for the very same company. That is where we all met.

I can't help but think that had my bf no gotten involved with her we would have wound up together a lot sooner. He just let her push her way into his life.

I have to admit that my curiosity got the better of me and I went through his ipad where he had his email synced up with his phone. I saw what their relationship was like based on actual conversations going back and forth between them. My bf was nothing but sweet to her but did note several times that he didn't want to be the reason she ended her marriage and that he would not ask her to do that ever. He has said that if she was ever "free" he would be the first in line to date her...

Well she put her husband on the back burner and went full charge ahead after my bf. She started to integrate herself into his life as much as possible. I mean she moved in right next door to him, they worked together, she wanted to hang out with him every night...

I had feelings for my bf at this time and went over to his place to tell him when who opens the door? Yeah, if you said this woman then you were right! She said something the affect of "WE are glad you stopped by but we are in the middle of something."

I left feeling confused and very disrespected. I stopped calling my bf (we were very close friends) and months went by. I saw that he took her to Panama on a vacation (with his family).

This gal set up a facebook account for him and then when we became online friends she deleted me from his page...it all just kind of stung.

I then found out he moved to another city through some mutual friends. I just figured at that point that our friendship was over. Until one day when he reached out via email.

He was not with this gal anymore and we resumed our friendship and somehow fell in love. It was years in the making for me and I am a bit hurt that she took up four years of his time - time we could have been together or at the very least friends.

He says that he is embarrassed that he was with her and that she was sort of just someone to be around when he was depressed and feeling anti social. She just wouldn't leave him alone so he stopped resisting and just allowed whatever happened to happen. I sort of don't buy that because I saw the emails they wrote to each other and it didn't seem like he was just going along for the ride...

Why is this eating at me so much? Perhaps because I can't get straight answers from him and have never really been able to talk to him about how I feel?

Any opinions, thoughts, suggestions?