I'm sorry to hear things are so bad for you at the moment
I hope you can at least see that you did something well and be proud of that! It sucks when life gets in the way, I know all bout job issues and money problems, unfortunately... (and those things bringing on depression)
Are you getting help at the moment? Of course you can always come on here if you need to talk, but if things are that serious, please also get professional help!