Sweetie, I can only imagine how hard this is.

But it is not the time to end your life. It is the perfect time to reach out to yourT and ask her for help. Remember how helpful she has been so far. She will feel so honoured to know you can feel this bad and still reach out to her. She can be your 'good enough mother' in therapy.......if you will let her.

Reach out 8, please. This is not the time to do something you can't come back from. Reach out to someone......now. we care and want you to be safe. I care. Please be safe 8.