thank you jane i am just too blinded to see straight

i'm trying to reason with myself: the only evidence i have of her having children is her husband saying 'we dropped our professional duties and parental responsibilities'

if they have children, they didn't take them on their travels they went on in 2009. this means either their children must be old, e.g. university age, or they are just HIS children and not hers. i don't know i am driving myself crazy

i can't reach out to her, i don't know what to say, i saw her today which means i am supposed to be okay, what do i say??? how do i tell her 'i internet stalked you and found your husband's blog' i just can't bring myself, it is so shameful i am a terrible person

he might not even be her husband anymore because their surnames are different and the last time they talked about being together was in 2012, she uses her maiden name?? i don't know??