Dear T

I'm afraid to talk to you about this. I kind of mention is once, or in my intake, but I also said I didn't had any plans. But these thoughts bother me. I'm afraid to tell you. I'm afraid to tell you how bad I'm really feeling. I Always kind of make it sound like I'm not as worse as I'm really feeling'. I just Always do that. I just don't really have good experiences from t's before you.
I was looking forward to seeing you tomorrow, but now... I just want to run away. From everything. I want to hide. I also don't want to be alone. But where ever I am, I will feel lonely anyway. So it's better to hide from everything.
I;m hurting. I don't know what to do. We have only had 7 sessions so far, but it feels like an eternity. Maybe it is because I have seen you so long before when I was in therapy with you. I feel hopeless. I feel like I'm failing. I feel like I'm a bad client. That I'm not doing good. Because I still feel as bad as 10 weeks ago.
I really don't want to see you tomorrow. I feel like such a failure.