Oh the mix of negative feelings I'm feeling. I just have so much going on, I'm stressed out of my mind, feeling defeated. While most people in my res are dressed up in ridiculous outfits filming a residence lip dub, I'm sitting in my room alone feeling the negative array of emotions. I so wish I could be with them, because who doesn't love feeling like a part of something? My whole life I've tried to feel like I fit in and not miss out on things but I'm starting to think it's not in the cards for me- that's I'm just wired differently and it's about time I accept that I'm different. It's not fair that I am and I have to go through twice the amount of struggles than my peers but hey that's life. It's also exhausting pretending that I'm not.