I was admitted to hospital on mar. 13th. I was brought in against my will because I was considering taking my life and my kids so that they wouldn't be left alone. I know now that those thoughts were ridiculous. I could NEVER harm my children. While in hospital, meds were changed. I was released last week under the condition that I would not be alone with my kids and that I will come back once I can get in for ECT. Having someone tell me what I can do with my kids is really difficult. I have done so much for them but am now treated as a threat, even though I am not. Today I had another med. adjustment and found out that I have to wait 3 more weeks for ECT. I don't think I can wait that long. I just want to have a normal life but everything is on hold. I am going minute by minute to be able to remain home.

So that is it in a nutshell.