Dear P-doc,
I know that you were trying to make the relationship we had meaningful in my life but I'm sorry, I can't. I can't let you or our therapy sessions matter to me on a deeper level because you're right, it's a defence mechanism, because I can't handle the hurt. There's just way too much pain inside that it's better to keep it all caged up. You're trying to unleash pandora's box. Although our relationship was short, I agreed that we had done some good work. But because it's been short, I've been anticipating your leave for a while and I didn't feel anything about it ending. One day, when I do learn to mourn my losses and the end of things, I promise I will mourn this.