I used to think we got along until one day my husband confessed to a sick conversation she had with him one on one about all the things she hates about me. They aren't fair and in some cases not even true. This was a few years ago and I was devastated, especially since she and I got along fine!

I tried to "fix" things I do to make her happy at my own happiness' expense. But now that I knew, I was much more aware of her feelings and the passive aggressive and snide things she was saying. I also found things from other people who slipped up that she was talking smack about me. So it was common knowledge in the family that she hates me.

I decided to stay myself, and stop walking on eggshells. I set firm boundries as needed, and tried to respect what I thought was fair from her complaints.

After spending the holiday with her, which I thought went VERY well, at basically the 11th hour, she and HER mother started piling on to my child in an emotionally abusive manner. I told her that I will handle my child, since I am the mom. She proceeded to berate me as a parent and tell me my child was a brat. (In front of my child). All the stuff I heard second hand- and more, came out in a shouting match. She told me not to come around anymore, to put it mildly.

My DH is trying to fix it. He spoke to her but she wasn't at all apologetic. So he's trying to make my father in law fix it.

And I'm in limbo. I've had it with this woman, but my kid was devastated enough by the ugly fight, and the subsequent crying, and the possible loss of grandma.

I've been taking anti anxiety pills while I try my hardest to stop ruminating.

My T is on vacation and I never call to talk between sessions anyways.

I have no one to vent to besides my husband, who is caught between his mother and his wife. So thanks for listening.

I want to scream and break things. I want to explode with rage! I feel so trapped inside myself and it's suffocating. [emoji20]