I have tried really hard to appear "normal" and appear to not feel dependent on my T...but I think the past couple of months I've blown my cover. Yes. I'm attached to her. But I felt so ashamed of that I did my best not to show it. Well, when she started canceling sessions because of personal issues, I am quite sure I didn't hide it very well. And I know now that I didn't, because she told me during that time she canceled 99% of her sessions, but did not cancel mine when she could help it. Or at least tried to reschedule. I was feeling a bit unstable and it's obvious to me now that she knew that. It was so exhausting to try to continue to maintain the façade of being completely independent, and unattached to her. But I am. If I had to label it, I'd say its a maternal sort of attachment I have. But I also believe she helped foster that attachment, probably knowingly....but for the reason of gaining my trust. I actually think that's a relatively normal thing to do. But I remember coming here even before I saw her for the first time...and asking, even before meeting her or connecting by anything other than Email, what I could do to avoid that attachment. I was afraid it would happen, and it did. No, I don't talk to her about it, nor do I wish to, because I'm quite sure she would distance herself further. I'm quite sure she probably knows, but it's really not something I want to talk about at this time.