I need to see a psychiatrist because my moods are all out of whack and I'm starting to fall apart and whatnot. I could get all technical with you all, but there's no real reason since you guys understand.

I got a referral from a primary here (for those of you who don't know, I moved in January for school -- 3 hours from home), and called them and they said that they require you to see one of their counselors before you can see a pdoc. This deterred me because I stopped T when I left home and I've been doing just fine and I didn't want to spend the time or money seeing one...so I looked around more...found a number that weren't accepting new patients and others who were booking out to June...and by that point (now), I saw no other choice but to go with the referral and see a counselor.

Anyway, I'm really nervous about seeing the counselor tomorrow. I've only had 2 Ts ever, and I only opened up 100% to one of them (the one I saw on and off for 7 years). I don't like talking to people I don't know, I don't know what they'll want me to talk about or what they'll ask me...but I do want them to be sure that this is a serious matter but that I am in no way a danger to myself or others, and I want them to know that even though I'm hanging in there, I need to see a pdoc sooner rather than later so that I can finish this semester because I've worked so hard to make it through and I'm not going to have it ruined by my metal illnesses like it was once before.

I think another fear of mine is that I'll cry. I know it's okay and all that, but I don't want it to happen.

Any words of wisdom?