Hello redposy. I'm sorry your boyfriend left you. That's very hurtful. I found it difficult to date with my bipolar disorder. I've never told who I was dating I was mentally ill but I did spend most of the relationship fearing they would discover my secret. I've put dating on hold for a few years to get comfortable with myself, my illness and to discover what I really want out of a relationship. The more time I spend doing this the more confident I have felt about myself. Now with my new found confidence I can afford to be choosy about who I will date, or if I even want to date at all. I hope this gives you the strength you need to get comfortable with you and know you deserve what everyone else in this world has in regards to relationships, love, family, future......