this T was time-limited even before I found out I have to move ASAP. Well, the agency is time-limited, but my T is more open around it. When I had mentioned the time-limit given by the supervisor when i had initially called, she said she didn't really think of it in that sense, but more as a basic time-frame given to new clients due to funding regulations... She seemed ot be ok seeing me for longer than that span, but that was before I realized I had to move sooner rather than later.
I originally thought I would be ok with the shorter time-frame for it all, but it takes me so long to trust. I had wanted to just power through all this stuff, but T slowed the pace. I've started and stopped this with 3 T's in the past year (they left the agency, or the agency was strict on the time-limit). I'm not sure how much more I want to try again. It's really hard getting to a point of being able to talk about this stuff, but at the same time, it's with me every day in the form of flashbacks, nightmares, and intrusive memroies. I keep hoping I'll get some releif through therapy, but we never get very far with it... and now it feels like the same thing is happening all over again (though this time it's all my fault. If I hadn't screwed up my credit so much, if I didn't let the flashbacks and depression get to me so much, if I wasn't a complete failure at life, it would be easier to find a place to live. I could have a job that allows me to afford living somwhere, and I could feel productive vs. like a total dead-beat loser...).