I can't take these crashes anymore. I really can't.

I'm going to ask for either an increase to 3 instead of 2 pills or I'm stopping it.

I had enough. This feeling is dangerous for me I can't keep trying to deal with such an unnatural depression.

Don't have the motivation to write anymore. It's painful like I'm being hurt physically.

And you know what?? I'm not erasing this this time. This is how I legitimately feel. I feel like complete ****.

These feelings are getting to me making my mind go out of control so now I'm convinced I have cancer. I'm telling my psychiatrist tomorrow because I'm not urinating properly. I'm only 18 so it better be the meds. I'm scared and want to numb myself.

COCAINE STOPPED MY PARANOIA AND CALMED ME DOWN. CAN YOU HEAR ME WORLD??? CAN YOU HEAR ME??? NOOOOOOOOO YOU EGOTISTICAL mf's