Hi guys!

It's been a minute. When last I was writing in, I was doing good. Sadly that is no longer the case.

I became obscenely busy. I began drinking again, smoking, smoking weed, etc... I am working feverishly, sleeping minimally. Irresponsible behavior, difficult times with my spouse. Some of the most difficult. I even spent a night out of the house. That has never happened before. Though I am holding the basics of my life together, and from the outside things maybe have never been better, internally I am suffering greatly and feel that I may crack. There is a fear, a fear that my sanity is limited, finite, and that I am pushing the boundaries, and that I could go off the edge.

I need to pull my life together, clean up again. When I am not writing in here, I am loosing my grip. Coming back on and hearing the stories of all of you is so helpful, and reminds me of the situation I actually face.

I'd welcome any words of support, I'm drifting right now.
Let me know.
MT