[QUOTE=EglantineRose;4384512 I wonder if the reason I talk to him still is because I have nobody else I can communicate with on a regular basis [/QUOTE]

The answer to that is, "Yes." Try to build connections to people in real life. You are using the Internet in a way that will only harm you. If at all possible, get into therapy, with the goal of learning to connect socially in real life.