thank you so much everyone.

i fell asleep and managed to get through the night. i'm feeling a bit different now its the morning. the kids in the pictures weren't hers, they were her niece and nephew.

i suppose when her husband said 'parental responsibilities' he could've meant HIS kids or their dog. but i don't think so. i'm going to ask her if she has kids on Friday.

i was too embarrassed to reach out. if i feel as awful tonight, i think i will. i'm just utterly heartbroken. thank you guys for saying that she can still be a mother figure though.

it just sucks because i'd really told myself that she was childless, it was my only comfort. i don't know how i can even see her again. it will never be the same.

it's knocked me back massively. i'm considering telling my mother about the discovery because i think she might understand. i just can't bear this. i can't see any way out. i'm just devastated, completely, devastated.