I'm glad you got some sleep 8.

It is understandable to feel overwhelmed and sad about this. I think it would be great though if you could talk about it with your T sweetie. She is in the best place to support you through this. Don't say 'never' just yet to seeing her again. These feelings will lessen and can be worked through if you want to give it a chance.

And if you think your Mum may understand, and be supportive, then that sounds like a great idea to share this with her too.

I remember when my T put a photo in his room of his wife and son. It HURT! Not because I wanted to be in his family, but for me it was because he appeared to have everything that I dearly wanted, and had lost. These things really impact us hun, it is normal. It hurts. Eventually, I told him and he acknowledged the hurt. He actually said it took a lot of deep thinking before he put it there, because he knew it may impact us....his clients. T's expect this sort of thing.

Take good kind care of yourself 8