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Originally Posted by 8888an8888
i don't have any siblings myself but i can see what you mean, i should've resolved all of it when i was a kid but i didn't. i just feel insanely jealous of her children, and i feel like i don't matter.
it's like my T just used me and strung me along, just like my abuser did, and i trusted her and genuinely believed she loved me, just like my abuser. but she doesn't. she's just another therapist. she doesn't care about me.
god, this is torturous  |
You couldn't have trusted her as you were Googling her. Perhaps you want the outside to match your insides than you can say, see, I told you no one cares about me.
No she probably doesn't care about you in the way you think someone should, but that doesn't mean there isn't some level if caring there.
Separating fantasy and reality us tough. But it's not an either, or thing.
I've been there, it's painful. I prefer reality.