Hi sweety, is she wanting you to try meds? It sounds like it. I'm sorry that you have zero support at home. I'm finding out myself that this is a lonely illness and no one believes you in the first place. What matters the most is taking care of yourself by taking meds to live a stabile life because I can handle most everything when I'm stabile. I'm not bipolar, I'm bipolar affected, but with meds you can't tell. Hang in there hun and get well, regardless what anyone thinks.