Urgggggggghhhhh. Please, someone give me the strength to move on, or give me the strength to end my life already. I know that I am likely going to be alone for a long time, if not forever, and honestly I won't be able to live that way. My ex is still holding me back, but he's made it clear he won't change for me (and that's his choice, and I will accept it), but I still get so upset over being ignored and feeling like I'll be forever alone when my false hope comes crashing down. The reason I perpetually cannot move on is because I will be completely alone, and I am too scared since no one else is there for me. I feel so misunderstood in every way, by both him and by society. I feel like I am too different because I am so yearning to find happiness but am unable to and will forever be unable to. I'm emotionally unable to handle this, and yet I must, because society doesn't give a crap to those who can't keep up. I hope that death is painless and fast, and I don't have to realise when I'm dying. Or I feel a sense of ease and acceptance. It would be so nice to never have to worry about it ever again.