Hi, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be spending a lot of time here so I might as well jump right in .

I don't want to jinx myself but the intensity of my depression seems to have decreased a bit in order to make some room for anxiety. I think because I am meeting with a therapist today to discuss starting group therapy next Monday and this is the first time in 10+ years that I've started to feel my mental issues are valid.

If I could I would name drop my new official diagnosis every chance I get (persistant depressive disorder, major depressive episode, social anxiety, with some BPD traits thrown in, if anybody cares to know ). Funny how I could go from keeping it a secret from everybody to wanting to shout it from the rooftops. In all honesty very VERY few people know what's going on with me.

FIL wants to go to Target today (closing in Canada, last day open at this location). Last time I had huge anxiety issues while I was there. Too many people, so much junk everywhere. I don't know. I want to kill time ( appointment isn't for another 4 hours), but I don't really feel like walking into an anxiety minefield.