Soup, can you elaborate? You tried to get some space, and T changed boundaries because of that? How so? I wish, too, I could quit dissociating. T used to help me come out of it, or keep from going there to begin with, but she used touch to do so. I have not dissociated since she redefined boundaries herself, I am trying VERY hard to stay "there" and not drift off... so far, I've succeeded. But it's only a matter of time. I don't know how she'll handle that anymore.

As far as the original post, I, too, am one who takes therapy very seriously, and go to my sessions, no matter how hard, and I'm 99.9% of the time, early. I've been seeing T for a year next month, and have only canceled one session. (and I go twice a week) Although I would have liked to have skipped several times, but used all the inner strength I could muster to go. And I'm proud of myself for that. For "facing the monsters" when I really didn't want to. I have taken therapy very seriously. I'm struggling to now because of an unresolved rupture, but until this rupture, I was VERY serious. My life revolved around my therapy schedule, therapy came first. I don't feel quite as committed right now, but I continue to go.

My T has never mentioned other clients... so I guess I don't know if my habit of being early and not canceling is common or not. Interesting yours shed some light on that.