My retired ex-therapist has been back for 2 months after a 6 month trip around the world.
He contacted me more when he was away. Now that he is back, he has not initiated contact. I have emailed him several times, and he called me once. I am going through a very difficult time right now, and ache to hear his words, he can calm and comfort me so easily. I just want to talk with him for a bit, not seeking therapy, but I will no doubt discuss my troubles to some extent.

Our agreement was we would keep in contact after he returned, but he has given me no expectations as to how often. I have asked him to be honest and please let me know what he would like for us....no contact, every month, every 6 months. I have nothing to hang onto, and I am guessing he just doesn't know what to do with his ex-patient.

So, I DID IT AGAIN, this morning. I have refrained emailing him for a few weeks to which he didn't respond. I have asked if I could reach out to him and could he reach back.
Kick, kick, kick. I just am still so attached to him, still love him, still think of him every day.

My current therapist doesn't really help much, just validates that I do have to grieve that relationship and it will take time. But, it angers me that my Ex-T said we would see each other, contact each other, have some kind of friendship but I have no idea what the boundaries should be. All I know is I want to talk with him, and hug him in person. I haven't seen him in 7 months. To go from every week sessions, to what feels like such abandonment...I'm not blaming him, he has retired, is so painful.