Let's see.
My first T started poking into my dysfunctional side in the first session. I think she mentioned abandonment in the third session. I felt extremely nervous before every session and was slightly late before everyone with her. I had a dream about her walking out of my life. In the next session, T informed me that her clinical supervisor ordered her to work out of an office that isn't on the bus route. I then told her about a thought of suicide that I had had (grandma died in the month before the session). She said twice that she would call me personally with the name of a new T. First week, no call. I think I called her voice mail because I was really get a strong feeling of abandonment by this point. She sounded as sick as I will get out. I was so happy and relieved that she was sick because it meant that I was being abandoned. She was told me that my thinking was "irrational." I sat in the corner and glared at her. I ended up writing a letter to her and sharing it with my new T.
New T: She brought up the subject of anti-depressants. She tried so hard to persuade me to try it that she failed to ask me why I was so opposed to them. I wanted to share my pro's and cons list.
Pdoc: I started an anti-depressant and in the next appointment, Pdoc said something about wanting me to work through my resistance. My brain seemed to almost be unable to function. I said that it was a scheduling issue because I delayed in scheduling (assuming that she remembered my worries about lossing hours at work which would end my health insurance). She replied that a mental health issue can interfere with work and school. I said that I had thought I was going to cry myself out of a job. I went home and cried all over the place. She missed one appointment which made me have to go without ADs for two days and then she says that. I felt dizzy by the end of the session!
Interuptions: My Pdoc got a phone cal in the middle of a 20 or 15 minute session. She was responsible for the in-patient in addition to the out patients that she was seeing. I couldn't believe that the agency would do it that way.
Current T: A person touched the door and we didn't know if it was a knock or just a person passing by. The person poked his/her head in and asked T if she had seen someone. The person apologized to T for interrupting her bought never onced even agnologized my presence. I just laughted. Afterwards, I found myself annoyed because I completely forgot everything that I had talked about before the interruption. I like to think about what we talked about on the way home. I couldn't remember anything of what we talked about before the interruption. So, I ended up wasting some of my money, my insurances money, my time and T's time due to the interruption.
My T drinks water during session, takes notes and sometimes puts away the file from the previous client in session. I don't think I could stand it if she ate during session or received phone calls much. The tech call would probably cause me to ask if we could re-schedule the session for a more convenient time. I am this way because I feel that the co-pay ($26) is high enough that I was my money's worth. Also, I tend to but in an adverage of an hour of planning before each session. I know that T has to go from person to person, so I can give her up to the next client when it is time. I want most of her undivided attention when she is with me. $26 is almost three hours of work for me. I think that should give the privledge of having her undivided attention. I might get grumpier about this because my new insurance doesn't cover mental health. So she now costs me $110 an hour! So, I am greedy when it come to therapy time.