"Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs." The twelth step in AA, NA, etc, involves reaching out and helping others. T is right. Helping others can help you too by improving self-esteem, increasing socialization etc.
I hope you can become a T. I am studying to become an addiction counselor and then someday I will try to get a master's in social work and become a T.
I am glad that you have discovered the secret of helping others as a way to maintain at least some of your own sanity.