She does reply. A short line or so sending love. She hadn't replied to the last two, from the last couple weeks, but she wrote a note today to say she had been sick for a while and would read them tomorrow. I was so afraid to even open that email. I was waiting to meet a client when it came in, and had to put it out of my head until tonight when I got home.

When I heard she was sick, it still gave me a qualm. Why does that even happen? How can I still love this person, despite feeling completely f#cked over, and at times, coldly angry with her? I don't get it, I really don't.