((((((eggplantlife))))))

Have you ever had support or help to stop drinking in the past? Can you reach that support network now? Check out the resources section on this site too.

Is there anything else you can do to distract you, have you ever checked out the games pages on this site? They help me, I feel an attachment to the regulars so I feel less lonely and just by trying to think up answers to silly questions means I have less time to think about the scary stuff.

Try to get some rest and then a little food if you can manage it, plenty of water too. It is all pretty lame advice but it is what I would say that to someone IRL and although I can't see you and I'm not with, your situation is real to me and I care.