Hello All,

I'm still in the hospital and so have a lot of time to think. And I think I figured out what made my alter come out to help me the last time I was in the hospital.

** trigger warning **

One of my alters I believe was born on a night I was raped. I was forcibly sodomized at age 18 and got no medical or social support. I was living abroad and didn't make any friends yet either. Well, to make a long story short, it was a horrible experience, and I believe at least one of my alters were born to take the pain of what was going on at the time.

When I was ran over by a truck last July, my left leg was almost ripped off of me, and I was almost entirely split in half. My vagina and **** were also split in half, almost like they were after I was raped. I think that's why the alter took over after the accident, then on and off while I was in the hospital.

The pain of being raped, and the pain of my accident were similar. This last surgery was a stomach surgery, and though it was painful, it is a different type of pain.

**end trigger**

So there you have it. That's why I think no alters came out to help me this time. I answered my own question. Yay!!