I'm a mess when it comes to attractions. I am emotionally attracted to women. I find women more physically attractive than men. But I'm only sexually attracted to men....

My dating experiences have been sad. I have very low self-esteem, so I don't think anyone I would be attracted to would want me. When I dated online, I actually rejected all the guys I was attracted to because I didn't want them to reject me. I mean, who would want an overweight girl with a ton of baggage??? So I dated people I thought was more my level? And even that failed.

Actually, how I wound up with my fiance is pathetic. We had a great date, but I didn't feel a connection. We had sex anyways. I was going to end it the next day, but instead he calls me and ends it. That set off my fear of rejection, so I begged him to take me back. How messed up is that?

So even though I can't relate to having no attraction, I can relate to having some "quirks" when it comes to dating.