Maybe if I quit these forums, take it out of my mind and concentrate on life, the black and white boundaries would fade off into gray, and just tolerate it for the rest of my life, blindly, but somewhat effectively as my focus accepts that everything I do as normal. Just ignore the obvious and re enter the world of ignorant bliss. I'm good at forgetting, so this won't be any different.

I've done it before, I think I can do it again. I think. That depends on everyone else. Oh so tempting.

I've read a theory that DIDers work hard to appear normal. That's how I feel. I feel like I've worked hard just to look like that I haven't worked at all. It's so exhausting. I've tried for a minute and it's not working yet.

Okay, it's all good. I can't fight it.