Yes there is a way and no suicide is not the answer. The way "out" is through. There is no other way but through. Through the pain and misery to come out the other end with some relief and insight. You have to be honest with your T and lay your cards out on the table with him. I see from your other post you have a schema T? Well this can be very effective but you have to try a little to be open and honest with him. And then he can be effective in helping you the best way he knows how. From my experience therapy is effective when we do the hard stuff. How are you doing with meds? I am not on any and don't know much about what works, but maybe there is another type you can try. Just don't give up, whatever you do. Things will look a lot different a year from now ifyou keep going. Just don't give up.