so last thurs i was leaving a coworkers office and i turned to walk out and ran smack into my intern. he is a big guy and i just face planted into his chest. this triggered something horribly bad and i just held myself up with the wall and couldnt breathe. i managed to get out to my car when the panic attack hit. i compartmentalized it and finished my day before i had an hour break and had to teach class. but it didnt happen because i completely lost it. it felt as if my head cracked open and my world shattered to a million pieces. i could not function. i could not think to pass on the info for someone else to teach. it was a worse decompensation than when i was committed against my will. t talked to my alters and it was a little that freaked out.

last night i was sitting on the couch watching tv. i suddenly get this horrible feeling in my head, a feeling as if i just majorly lost it and was having a breakdown, but it was distant and remote, it wasnt me. it was someone inside me which led to a panic attack again feeling more internal than from me.

i am scared that my alters are all having breakdowns and what does this mean for me?